I just really need somewhere to vent. Badly.

So this'll do. So be warned, TL;DR ahead

Buh.

I am frustrated. No, this time i am not frustrated with my art, nothing like that. For a little while, that took a break in the backround of things, to give way for something a little more significant.

Schooling

More precisely, the schooling i'm (unfortunately) partaking in, wich is Art Schooling. Comic Art and Illustration, to be more precise.

Now, i dont even know. The only comic books i ever took interest in were Disney ones, like Uncle Scrooge or Donald Duck. I may have found the odd one out that sparked my interest, but i never ventured much beyond that, unlike most kids, i never even took interest nor liking to superhero comics or anything like that. Actually, the only reason i ever liked those Disney comics was because they reminded me of the cartoons, and they were as close as i could get to watching cartoons when they weren't actually on. So it'd be safe to say that my true passion would be animation, not comic books.

But, of course, from an early age, my interest in drawing grew and grew, and i did it all the time, surely not from an attempt to mimic comic books, but to mimic animation i gather, but, to mention the obvious, it was far more manageable and realistic for me to draw than outright animate. This applies even until now, since i only had like 2 oe 3 stabs at animating, and despite how enjoyable that was, it was tiresome, and i prefer drawing over animating, for various reasons.

But i digress, since this isnt even the point. What i was trying to say with this was, i think, how disconnected and uninterested i am with the comic book medium, my interests being far more focused on animation, as far as mainstream real life media go. On the internet the story is a bit different though, as there are plenty of comics and illustration to cater to my tastes, but, for some reason, said styles and types of drawing are hardly available irl, or are rare as fuck.


ANYWAY

So, in spite of all of this, i end up taking up studies in a thing and art medium i really couldn't give two shits about. And, ironically, my country's scene particularly sucks when it comes to it. Its a tiny, tiny niche where virtually nobody makes a living off of it, unlike in places like France, or the USA or what have you, so about 99% of the stuff lingers in obscurity and underground niches. Wich is kinda a sinonym for "99% of it is made by no talent hack hipster hippies who, unable to make it into the non existant national mainstream, get butthurt and deny even having the intention to do so, wich in turn only causes them to churn out badly drawn, pseudo intellectual garbage ridden with a juvenile thirst for being rebbelious and 'alternative', but somehow witty and 'artistic' at the same time. And anyone that knows me will know that i absolutely despise that kind of garbage and attitude. (Ironic maybe, but that's far beyond the point and not what i wish to babble about rite now)


So anyway. Teaching any kind of artistic thing or art itself is a pretty fucking tricky thing to begin with, even with the right people and mindset. I came to this course hoping to learn technical skills and overrall knowledge to help me improve my craft. But lo and behold, who, of all people, will make up most of my teachers?

You guessed it. The no talent, pseudo artistic hippie fucks.

Now, i dont really give two shits what you do with your free time, how artistic and "out there" you deem yourself to be, but if you're gonna take up the responsability to teach people how to draw shit and do shit related to drawing shit, you better know how to fucking draw. I dont care how fucking witty your circle jerk of no talent hacks thinks your stories are, i dont fucking care how many awards your ugly ass comics won on the fucking hippie accoustic guitar playing fest, i dont want your "knowledge" on how to be "artistic". I want fucking tips on how to draw the human body, i want anatomy lessons, i want ways to improve perspective, lightning and shading, and how the fuck are you suposed to teach me that if all your work looks like its drawn by a fucking thumbless autistic 10 year old?? ffffffffffffffffffffffff

If i wanted to learn how to be "artistic" i'd fucking sit in a circle with the bunch of you pretentious fucks with a thumb up my ass, smoke pot and discuss the latest sigur rós album like you do all the goddamn time

And to think i'm paying 400 bucks a month for this useless garbage being spoonfed down my throat

Not all my teachers are like that, but it's safe to say about a third of them each semester are. Another third actually knows what they are doing, but are too fucking stuck up and/or unable to act unbiasedly without letting their personal tastes and preferences interfer all the goddamn time and twist whatever they are "teaching us" to be effective either way. About only one third are actually ballanced and effective teachers. Too bad half of those are from subjects i dont give two shits about and that are only there as filler.

And to think i already wasted two and ahalf years and over 5000 bucks on this charade.

And i already forgot half of what i was suposed to say. But this'll do for now, i guess

Anyway. If you read that all the way, congrats to you.

I should be doing homework.